The Moment I Lie Down

This piece was lovingly crafted for Ruminations of an Old Soul, released July 7, 2016.

Getting into bed should be a moment of ultimate freedom. The pitch black room should feel peaceful and inviting. Nowhere to be, no more obligations to fill on this day. The mind deserves to be at rest for the next hours. Dreams should take me on an adventure, whether comedic, enjoyable or nonsensical. The mind and soul should be freed of the burdens of the day. Continue reading “The Moment I Lie Down”

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Anxiety Banned

This piece was lovingly crafted for Ruminations of an Old Soul, released October 27, 2016.

My struggle with anxiety is ongoing. It affects my every day no matter how strong or weak it is at that time. It lurks in the shadows like a silhouette. It jumps at every opportunity to tear me downwards. It is not welcome in my life but it is indifferent to that.

Some days I almost forget about anxiety. It goes dormant within my consciousness. The smiles, laughter and living in the moment betray what lies in wait underneath. Sure, there are brief moments of anxiousness but they can easily be brushed aside. Then, there is today. Continue reading “Anxiety Banned”

Down, Out and Numb

This piece was lovingly crafted for Ruminations of an Old Soul, released July 6, 2016.

There is an unavoidable calm when you lay quietly in a pitch black room during the day. The world continues on as if you don’t exist: cars continue to whirr by on the main road; animals chirp and bark at one another with no discernible intent;  social media continues to fill with attention grabbing self promotion. The world goes on with it’s business whether you are actively taking part or not. Continue reading “Down, Out and Numb”

Finding Your “It”

This piece was lovingly crafted for Ruminations of an Old Soul, released May 15, 2015.

I’ve always been one to assume that the grass is greener on the other side. The next hobby could be better than my current ones. That new device could work slightly better for me. A never ending cycle of new trumping old.

This is an endless trap, a waste of precious time. Notice how new things could, may, should, etc. be better than what I have going on today. There is no guarantee, only the possibility. Instead of always seeking out the latest and greatest, try to find your “it”. That one constant in your life among a sea of change. I’m by no means an expert at this, far from it. Continue reading “Finding Your “It””

Looking Through A Dirty Glass Window

This piece was lovingly crafted for Ruminations of an Old Soul, released July 12, 2016.

“Nobody dresses up any more.” he muttered to nobody in particular. It should be known that he was quite the cynic. It was a quiet evening in a small town, and he was enjoying walking down lonely roads, clad in a tattered tee shirt and jeans faded by time. His mind roamed free while the sun slowly sank away in the distance.

He had always considered himself misunderstood. An anomaly. He had been younger than most of his classmates yet he was more mature than them. Social skills lacking, his circle of friends was small yet consistent. A series of long standing friendships. His life stood at odds with many of his peers. Continue reading “Looking Through A Dirty Glass Window”